Happy Monday, loves! I’m lying on my couch writing this at 11:19pm the night before I need to post it. There’s nothing like a little procrastination to start a motivational post, right? Ha! The past week has been super busy with work, classes, seeing the opera at OCU (it was phenomenal), and preparing for my graduate voice recital. Yes, you read that right – my graduate voice recital. Crazy!
I am still reeling from the experience and it ended over 2 hours ago. While I was taking off my makeup from the performance, I thought, “This would make a great post.”
So here we are. 🙂
At this point last year, I had my graduate recital planned out and in the books for the following spring (I forgot the date…had to block it out of my memory). Then, I got sick – HSP-Vasculits, read that story HERE. I had to start taking medicinal steroids and postpone my recital. I was crushed. I did not know when I was going to be able to stop taking steroids and knew that until then I could not fully sing.
Fun fact: steroids make your body feel better when it is not actually better. This makes it very dangerous for vocalists to sing while taking steroids. We cannot feel any strain on our vocal chords and can therefore injure ourselves. The vocal chords are teeny-tiny muscles, so injury can be detrimental to a singer’s career.
Anyway, back to the story. For months, I could not belt – a vocal technique that I had been trying to master for over a year. I could barely even sing – and each time I did, I was putting myself at risk of vocal injury. I was scared that HSP would keep me from achieving my dream of performing on Broadway. If I couldn’t sing fully, how could I perform every night? If I couldn’t belt, I wouldn’t be eligible for most of the roles I wanted to play. What was I even doing, working toward this degree if I couldn’t even use it? It broke my heart.
But, I was determined not to let my dream die. I still took voice lessons and vocal coaching sessions. I improved my mix-belt and legit voice. I listened to a lot of Broadway recordings and expanded my knowledge of the field. I did not give up.
This brings me to the point of this Motivational Monday post.
No matter how bleak the future looks. No matter how many obstacles stand in your way. Fight for your dream. Work to make things happen. It will be worth it.
Tonight, I finally gave my graduate voice recital. It had been a long time coming. I worked my butt off to get to this point and I belted my face off tonight. The acting was some of my best work. I was connected to the song and to my characters. The audience laughed and cried. I even cried some…oops.
2016 has been a rough year.
I’ll say it, it has been hell. The past 11 months have been the hardest months of my life. And the fight isn’t over. But tonight I proved that the fight was worth it.
I am reeling from the pride I feel for my performance.
After all the hard times I have been through, I was able to do some of my best singing and acting, while showing off a body that I love again. (I have lost 25 pounds since May – thanks to transitioning off steroids and being able to get back into a fitness regime).
Eight months ago, I could not stand for more than 5 minutes without being in excruciating pain, couldn’t belt, and couldn’t sing for more than 15 minutes without risking losing my voice. I had gained 20 pounds of weight from water retention and bed rest. I was scared that I wasn’t going to get better or pursue my dream.
A few weeks ago, I didn’t even know if I wanted to perform anymore. I wasn’t sure if it was a career I wanted to pursue. Let’s be real, I hadn’t performed in over a year; I couldn’t even remember what that drive to achieve my dream felt like.
Today, I sang for an hour. I belted. I wore 5 inch gold glittery stilettos. I ran. I jumped. I twirled. And I looked d*** good doing it.
I was happy. I am happy. I remembered why I love performing – why I to do it – why this is my passion. I finally felt happy, proud, and at peace. It was all worth it.
Get out there today and chase your dream. Push through the obstacles and chip away at the barriers. Take every day one step at a time. Little achievements are still progress. It might take a while to achieve your goal but you can do it. It will be worth it. I promise.
What is your dream? Comment below! I’d love to read about it and support you through the journey of achieving it!
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